Depression has set in…..

The five stages of grief is a commonly known theory that explains the emotions a person goes through after experiencing a loss in his or her life.  Currently I am chin deep in the denial waters.  I just can’t believe he left.  I thought he was different.  I thought he would at least be here to see the culmination of his first five years as a head coach.  Next year is suppose to be THE year for Xavier.  Now, it all is up in the air.  

He even said it as much.  Im paraphrasing, but he said something along the lines of “Next year has all the makings of a special season for Xavier.”  Now he turns his back on it all and goes thousands of miles west to take over a program that for all intensive purposes hasn’t been recruiting for two whole seasons.  I don’t necessarily wish failure upon him but I sure as Hell won’t be losing any sleep if that’s what it comes to out west.  

Never again.  Never again will I trust anything a college coach says.  Even though every fiber of my being will want to.  

In the end, what  I want to believe will happen and what will actually happen are two things that are hard to separate.  I wanted to, nay, DID believe Sean Miller when he said Xavier is a school he does not look upon as a “stepping-stone” job.  

Honestly, I am in shock.  Call me naive if you want to.  But I just refused to allow myself to think he would take the job out west.  Ugh, why do I care so much?

I’m gonna go have a beer.

Let’s go X!